They say the best blogs are the ones that tell stories. The ones that share not just information but also life. I don’t do that very well. So, here’s my attempt to start…
This is a picture of my hand…branded with the number “160″ permanently (with a sharpie)! The number is there as a reminder to me.
As you all know, I’m ADHD and medicated for it! This helps not only with my ADHD but to grow SO much in my ability to stay on task and excercising self control during the day. Especially in what I eat.
Typically my weekdays start around 4:30 AM…on the ellyptical by 5:00 followed by some supersets, shower, in the Word & then onto the office! From there my day rarely slows down until I get home & eat dinner. Breakfast & lunch are small at best, but dinner I enjoy!! 
This is also the time of day when my medication wears off! It’s the moment I go from complete control to “not as complete” control. In many ways, aside from some extra sillyness at times, you can’t tell…except in what I begin to eat.
As the day closes I begin to crash. Boredom sits in & leads me to eat what I shouldn’t. Self control becomes French to me and all the hard work from that morning begins to be canceled out with bad food choices.
So WHY the branded “160″ on my hand?
It’s my goal weight!! Its a reminder to me to make wise choices even when it’s harder to do so! It reminds me of my goal and forces me to ask the question, “is what’s IN my hand (going toward my mouth) going to help me reach what’s ON my hand?”
Weight matters to me! I grew up overweight and “husky!” I got made fun of and grew very insecure with how I looked (being 5 foot, 5 inches didn’t/doesn’t help). More importantly I take the command to HONOR GOD with my body seriously (1 COR 6:20, ROM 12:1) even when I fail miserably at it!! Our bodies are a gift from God and we’re called to be good stewards of that gift!! I really want to do that in a way that brings Him glory!!
Please hear me. I’m not blaming my lack of self control, when it comes to what I eat and losing weight, on me being ADHD or on the fact that I’m medicated for it! Nor am I asking for pity for that fat child/young teen in me. I’m a big boy and I’m responsible for my own decisions!
I share simply because it’s a small part of my story right now. It’s what I’m growing through, hopefully for Gods glory through me!!
Just a little of my story…